Last night, Christian and I were watching the season finale of The Good Wife. And I realized, I'm ready.
I hit 37 weeks yesterday. Only three weeks left, and I still have tasks that are undone. Rocking chair for newbaby's room? Not ordered. Newborn diapers? Haven't arrived. New camera? Unpurchased, unopened, unlearned. BUT my hospital bag is packed, we have a crib and mattress ready and curtains that have been hung, my iPhone is always at my side, and I'm ready.
Christian told me that personally, he would rather newbaby waited until his or her due date to arrive, but he also acknowledged that it's easy for him to say, since he's not the pregnant one. The eight-months-pregnant-and-taking-care-of-twin-one-year-olds one. I'm that one. And I'm ready.
I've been more at peace with the idea of newbaby's arrival since publishing my last post on the subject. I think writing that post, finally getting a crib, and working on my baby Instruction Manual helped get me there. And then yesterday we visited Christian's parents, and seeing Max and Maggie perfectly at ease with them was a song to my heart. Max and Maggie are ready. Or at least, as ready as they'll ever be.
My family history would indicate that since newbaby is alone in there, he or she isn't coming early; if I follow the pattern established by my mother and sisters, I'll carry past my due date. But newbaby is full term now, kicking and wiggling around inside me, looking for a way out and making me very uncomfortable. I think it's safe to say that newbaby is ready.
I had contractions last night, ones that had me looking at the clock and counting silently to myself. Ones that had me hitching my breath and shifting position. Ones that helped me see, everything necessary is in place.
I was disappointed when those contractions stopped and I was able to rest all night long. Because this is happening. Happening soon. It's going to be difficult, the labor part and the figuring-out-how-to-survive-again part. But it's also going to be okay -- I know that. And I'm ready.
BRING IT ON!
*image via Facebook.